de angsting

Loads of angst from the last 6 months seem to be ebbing back out. Have a long list of things I need to take care of this spring. Lost being able to take naps for a long time, so naps are at the top.

Ice flop this weekend. Had brief super glaze for a couple hours, then the rained warmed up. We're a soggy wet mess. River going over and stuff.

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Today was pretty awesome. Got a nap. Had my husband to myself most of the day. Cleaned out a chest of drawers and a kitchen hutch. I may be getting enough space back soon to get the stuff back out of my bedroom that I dragged in there nearly 3 years ago to make room for more people.

I will be purging my house the rest of the winter. Scott said something upstairs smells nasty. No telling what in the world it could be. We'll have to drag everything around looking.

For now, I'm enjoying my couch, my tv, and a lack of insane rabbit kicking it's cage.

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What I didn't mention are the dreams. I'm still having intensely real dreams that the world is different, and I'm talking to other people as if my life rolled out so differently than it has.

It's like I have to remember the pain to remember I'm here and not there.